So I have been on Lupron (.2cc) for over a week now. Starting to see side effects a bit. Actually teared up at a party tonight with in-laws when happy to see them. In my head I was screaming "Really, glad to see you, but the tears are from the HORMONES I am on!!!!". My DH and I got a kick out of it! Hilarious!

Should start period this week and then begin calls to Yale and RE to schedule testing. I am really not into this. It's weird to be on drugs for a "mock cycle/testing"... no hope; just shooting up in hopes of finding and not finding something wrong at the same time.

Have I mentioned my sister-in-law is prego. She lives a few doors down and told me 2 days before my last FET. To say I find it difficult at times is being nice. I find myself the "ugliest person alive" full of jealousy, hate, and no sympathy. And I watch her pick up her son and inside I am screaming "DON'T DO THAT - YOU COULD LOSE THE BABY!". She gets preg so easily, and despite extreme nausea, truly has great pregnancies. I need to learn to be better at being happy for others.

I am screaming too much in my head these days, aren't I?

I attended a Women's prayer group for infertility this week. Truly wonderful women. It started 6 years ago with 2 women and has grown. Over 50% of those that come are alumni - there for support and inspiration! What a testament to how hard this is and how it affects us!!! Good news is, one in the group has done the EFT and now has twins. HOPE! I love that! And over 82 babies have been born and over 12 adoptions! In 6 years! That is encouragement! Amen!

Thanks to those that listen :)

EFT

Happy New Year! Maybe this is the year for MANY of us!!! I am ready for change and moving forward! You?

We lucked out and had a quick meeting with our IF Dr a week after the BFN. He met with the committee in his practice, and all believed I am a good candidate for a 2nd uterine lining biopsy. But this time, the biopsy will be on a special protocal from a Yale professor (Kliman) specializing in the uterus & placenta?? The link is: www.endometrialfunctiontest.com

Cost of the test is about $450 plus cost of biopsy and shipping in local IF office. And since I have NEVER had an embryo implant in 2.5 years, and with mild endo, chances are my uterus has toxins or chemicals in it making implantation impossible. They say that if something is found, over 89% of those treated become pregnant. I would have to do Lupron (.2cc) for 3 months, then try another FET.

So, as ready as I am to move forward, it makes sense to slow down and try this. Guess I mine as well cut back on wheat and dairy again while I am at it!

Holidays were hard with the millions of baby photo holiday cards - I think I counted over 50! But I am getting better at handling things the further I get from the most recent BFN. 

Anyone out there ever do an EFT or had any luck with something like this?