So I have been on Lupron (.2cc) for over a week now. Starting to see side effects a bit. Actually teared up at a party tonight with in-laws when happy to see them. In my head I was screaming "Really, glad to see you, but the tears are from the HORMONES I am on!!!!". My DH and I got a kick out of it! Hilarious!

Should start period this week and then begin calls to Yale and RE to schedule testing. I am really not into this. It's weird to be on drugs for a "mock cycle/testing"... no hope; just shooting up in hopes of finding and not finding something wrong at the same time.

Have I mentioned my sister-in-law is prego. She lives a few doors down and told me 2 days before my last FET. To say I find it difficult at times is being nice. I find myself the "ugliest person alive" full of jealousy, hate, and no sympathy. And I watch her pick up her son and inside I am screaming "DON'T DO THAT - YOU COULD LOSE THE BABY!". She gets preg so easily, and despite extreme nausea, truly has great pregnancies. I need to learn to be better at being happy for others.

I am screaming too much in my head these days, aren't I?

I attended a Women's prayer group for infertility this week. Truly wonderful women. It started 6 years ago with 2 women and has grown. Over 50% of those that come are alumni - there for support and inspiration! What a testament to how hard this is and how it affects us!!! Good news is, one in the group has done the EFT and now has twins. HOPE! I love that! And over 82 babies have been born and over 12 adoptions! In 6 years! That is encouragement! Amen!

Thanks to those that listen :)